Today Larry and I and Jessica went to Base Camp to help Brent go through his passage. It was a wonderful day. We started out with lunch and a cake that Brent and his friend (another client) had made. Which was very good. Afterwards we went to a TeePee and did a ceremony called smudging. Brent's friend (same one who made the cake with him) Picked some pine and you add some coals from the fire and put it all into a shell then allow the smoke to wash over you. Taking out of you whatever you want and replacing it with what you need. It is a time of reflection and it is all done in silence. After that we went to the swing!! I didn't get a picture of Brent on the swing because I thought I had to pull the rope!! I wish I had known how easy it was and that I wasn't really needed to pull the rope at all. He went RIGHT to the VERY VERY top and WOOOOOSH he went - it was awesome! He was fearless! Me on the other hand almost PLOTZ but I did it! Larry video taped me and everything lol!

We are so Proud of you Brent and so happy you are home! Now we can continue on this journey together as a family. Remember, we are always here for you - when ever you need us and even when you think you don't.

Love ya kid!

The countdown has begun. Brent gets to come home this Friday at 1:00. I and almost afraid to breathe. I am so proud of all he has done - I am terrified of my house of cards tumbling down. I have planted my feet firmly into his life and will be there if he needs me and even if he thinks he doesn't.

Right now I am looking at Friday and spending it in a ceremony with my son and showing him how proud of him I am. We did some amazing work last Saturday at the AADAC center. I really got to see the world through Brent's eyes and he seems to really understand me as well. It was heart warming and fulfilling.

I will be taking pictures! So dear readers this part of our journey will come to an end on Friday - I invite you to take a moment that day and send some good positive thoughts to Brent and do your own version of celebrating. You have come a long way with us and been my sounding post, my rock and my confidants.

Thank you for being here for us and for you kindness, heart and strength. I will post how it all went on Friday! We are there Friday 9AM and it's done at 1:00 PM.

From us to you, Thank you - a million thank yous.
Love and gratitude,
~Brent, Jessica, Larry and Kristen

We are inching closer to Brent's passage day. He finishes the Base Camp program November 20th. Hard to believe 3 months have past already.


To say there have been changes would be an understatement. He is a person I am glad to have finally met. The weekends that he comes home (every second weekend) I enjoy his company very much. He has a bright and funny sense of humor. He is very open and honest with us. He has told us everything we ask of him and told us things we didn't ask. He came clean about all his "use" problems and various addictions. Nothing too shocking to us really - just proud he came to us and told us, as hard as it was for him to do.


We go to the AADAC center next weekend all day for 2 days with Brent. It's for something they call "Family Matters". Us and a couple of other families all get together and do various workshops. It's to help strengthen the family unit and help us to learn about each other.

He will be starting school in September of next year. My biggest concerns are when he comes home. I am in a huge conflict over what to do. He will be home by himself until September - that is a long time. He will get bored and I worry what will happen. With me working and not being there to get him to do things or to do things with him - well the guilt I will feel if he falls backward will be unbearable. I can't lose him and I should be doing all I can to help him. I already have unbearable guilt from working to start with. Since this all really started when I started to work. I don't think I would ever forgive myself, I can't seem to now as it is.

Not sure what to do next.