We are inching closer to Brent's passage day. He finishes the Base Camp program November 20th. Hard to believe 3 months have past already.
To say there have been changes would be an understatement. He is a person I am glad to have finally met. The weekends that he comes home (every second weekend) I enjoy his company very much. He has a bright and funny sense of humor. He is very open and honest with us. He has told us everything we ask of him and told us things we didn't ask. He came clean about all his "use" problems and various addictions. Nothing too shocking to us really - just proud he came to us and told us, as hard as it was for him to do.
We go to the AADAC center next weekend all day for 2 days with Brent. It's for something they call "Family Matters". Us and a couple of other families all get together and do various workshops. It's to help strengthen the family unit and help us to learn about each other.
He will be starting school in September of next year. My biggest concerns are when he comes home. I am in a huge conflict over what to do. He will be home by himself until September - that is a long time. He will get bored and I worry what will happen. With me working and not being there to get him to do things or to do things with him - well the guilt I will feel if he falls backward will be unbearable. I can't lose him and I should be doing all I can to help him. I already have unbearable guilt from working to start with. Since this all really started when I started to work. I don't think I would ever forgive myself, I can't seem to now as it is.
Not sure what to do next.
To say there have been changes would be an understatement. He is a person I am glad to have finally met. The weekends that he comes home (every second weekend) I enjoy his company very much. He has a bright and funny sense of humor. He is very open and honest with us. He has told us everything we ask of him and told us things we didn't ask. He came clean about all his "use" problems and various addictions. Nothing too shocking to us really - just proud he came to us and told us, as hard as it was for him to do.
We go to the AADAC center next weekend all day for 2 days with Brent. It's for something they call "Family Matters". Us and a couple of other families all get together and do various workshops. It's to help strengthen the family unit and help us to learn about each other.
He will be starting school in September of next year. My biggest concerns are when he comes home. I am in a huge conflict over what to do. He will be home by himself until September - that is a long time. He will get bored and I worry what will happen. With me working and not being there to get him to do things or to do things with him - well the guilt I will feel if he falls backward will be unbearable. I can't lose him and I should be doing all I can to help him. I already have unbearable guilt from working to start with. Since this all really started when I started to work. I don't think I would ever forgive myself, I can't seem to now as it is.
Not sure what to do next.
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