The revolving door in my house keeps on spinning. Today Brent showed up after being gone all night. He was in bed sleeping when I came home from work and so I left him sleeping. When I went to check on him again 20 minutes ago - he was gone - again. I am so sick of this, Please anyone have any thoughts? I am thinking while he is gone boarding up his windows so he can't get back in that way BUT my biggest fear with that is if there is a fire and he's in his room he can't get out - so that is no good either! What do I do now? I just don't get it.
Why is my life this way. We did what we were supposed to do as parents, I really can't think of anything that was so horrible I have ever done for this to be happening. Larry and I both have tried to be good people, good role models for our kids. Even in our teen years nothing we ever did could possibly warrant this kind of Karma. I know we laugh it off and talk about the crazy things we did as teens but nothing compares to this - Nothing. Now I am siting at midnight writing this feeling like a piece of garbage and like I want to start screaming or crying or both, and every siren I hear my skin crawls and I get a lump in my throat and I worry. I am living a fucking nightmare and there is no waking up.
He brought home with him today the kid he was caught by the police with while they were trying to break into cars. HE BROUGHT this kid to my house with my 11 year old little girl here - this criminal. He is a homeless criminal and Brent not only brought him into my home with my baby girl here but he then went to bed and LEFT him with her!! Jessica called me at work and we got the kid out of the house. Now Brent is gone - probably with this kid again and there are more sirens going by the house and my skin is crawling and I am crying and wondering why God just hates us so much.
I can't write any more
Why is my life this way. We did what we were supposed to do as parents, I really can't think of anything that was so horrible I have ever done for this to be happening. Larry and I both have tried to be good people, good role models for our kids. Even in our teen years nothing we ever did could possibly warrant this kind of Karma. I know we laugh it off and talk about the crazy things we did as teens but nothing compares to this - Nothing. Now I am siting at midnight writing this feeling like a piece of garbage and like I want to start screaming or crying or both, and every siren I hear my skin crawls and I get a lump in my throat and I worry. I am living a fucking nightmare and there is no waking up.
He brought home with him today the kid he was caught by the police with while they were trying to break into cars. HE BROUGHT this kid to my house with my 11 year old little girl here - this criminal. He is a homeless criminal and Brent not only brought him into my home with my baby girl here but he then went to bed and LEFT him with her!! Jessica called me at work and we got the kid out of the house. Now Brent is gone - probably with this kid again and there are more sirens going by the house and my skin is crawling and I am crying and wondering why God just hates us so much.
I can't write any more
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