So Tyler has emailed with Larry and said the reason Brent is doing stupid "shit" is because we are jerks to him. So giving Brent every thing he could ever want, including a loving home - must have been hell. It wasn't until Tyler came into his life that Brent changed into -.. well TYLER. He is a carbon copy of the same kid! IF I had known Tyler needed help or IF I had been given the choice or CHANCE who knows, I might have stuck my neck out for him too. Those of you who know me know I probably would have. I wasn't given the choice.

Anyways, how we got here isn't important anymore. How we get back is what is important. I guess the Brent I used to know isn't ever coming back but I do hope something simliar is and soon. I miss him so much every part of me hurt. I fight to stop crying all the time. I worry if I start I might lose my mind and never stop again. My heart is in pieces and I feel sick all the time.

Today is another bad day for me. I feel dead inside. I have small windows when I don't just feel like curling up and dying but they are getting further apart.